Oh the awkwardness . . .

In other news a guy that I know from a social setting recently starting emailing me because of some photos he noticed I posted on my facebook page. His opening line was "I don't know of any girls who like football enough to make it a point to go to a game." After some analyzation with a friend, we decided that clearly, he just doesn't know many girls period because quite a few girls enjoy football games, especially when their alma mater is the team in question. He then proceeds to tell me that if he had tickets, he'd invite me to see his team play (because it's supposed to be such an "experience" to watch this team). Hmm . . . I send a very brief, non-interesting email back and he takes that as a sign to continue with the messaging. Clearly I am VERY good at making guys I'm not interested in interested in me (shockingly, I've always been extremely good at this). And maybe that's part of the problem . . . be a little unavailable . . . seriously . . . it's no fun if I don't have to work at least a little bit for it. Anyway, not quite sure yet how to handle this situation because of the context in which I know this guy but hopefully he's too shy in person to actually ask me out or anything crazy like that. If I had a dime for everytime I had to deal with this situation . . .

I'm seriously harboring doubts about this online dating thing. I'm really starting to wonder if maybe I just need to focus all of that energy in some other place, perhaps working out, maybe actually going out more (anyone?), although that would require friends in town to do that with, joining some sort of clubs or activities in town . . . I just really am beginning to think that all these guys online are freaks (well intentioned freaks but freaks nonetheless).

A good friend pointed out to me that it is completely okay to go with my gut and just want what I want and not have to analyze or explain it. And that's what I want to do right now. I want it all. I want my Mr. Personality, life of the party, independent, intelligent, sports enthusiast (preferably Mizzou but that's negotiable), drop dead gorgeous (at least to me), slightly arrogant, yet still slightly romantic, committed and totally in love with me. I want my stomach to flip when I see him (at least at the beginning). I'm tired of putting so much time and energy into this stupid online dating when it just makes me irritated, tense and takes up a lot of my time!