Unanswered Prayers

I just got an email from a guy I was communicating with and was actually really looking forward to getting to know better. He said that he wanted to be honest and that he'd been out on a few dates with someone and they'd really hit it off and that he thought it was at the point where he really shouldn't be communicating with anyone else. And, no lie, it really bummed me out. I felt like I'd been dumped. But really, how can you be dumped if you haven't even met the person yet?

Funny isn't it? I thought that online dating would be more about me getting to choose who I wanted to go out with but it really does a funny parallel to reality in trying to figure out what the guy is thinking, if he's going to respond, when he's going to respond, if he's going to ask you out, etc. And then feeling bummed or elated when he either doesn't or does respond to you!

I think I have this idea in my head of who I want to date/end up with/marry/etc and I don't know if it really coincides with something I might find in reality. It's not like I'm asking for a whole laundry list, just an intelligent, laid back, self-sufficient, self-confident, sports enthusiast (Mizzou fan preferred), an adventurous spirit, Christian guy who has a good job and wants to be a dedicated family man in the body of an Olympic swimmer (say Brandon Hansen for visual aid purposes) with beautiful brown eyes and a dark complexion. Shouldn't he be out there somewhere? :)

I'm just frustrated that I haven't met someone I'm really interested in yet (and all those that I meet and I'm uninterested in just serve cause to add more qualities to the above list which is probably counterproductive to my search!) . . . what ever happened to those good old fashioned high school crushes? Man I miss those! I want to walk down the hall in the opposite direction just so I can bump into that cute guy and have him walk me to Calculus class. It just seemed so much easier back then! And there wasn't nearly as much pressure . . . no one in high school was considering whether you were marriage material or if they wanted your genes mixed with theirs in future generations . . .

And the even more fitting part to this post is that just this morning at church we were discussing how God doesn't always answer your prayers because another path might be better suited for you or sometimes He does just to show you that what you want isn't always what you need. So I guess at this moment I'm going to trust in that. Maybe my plan in my head isn't necessarily the right one for me or maybe I just need to be a little more patient and enjoy all the blessings I currently have around me and fail to notice and appreciate as much as I should.